Adrenaline

I love the moment when your adrenaline kicks in. It means that you are doing more than your body is used to and that it has to have more strength than your body has stored. I hit this point while running the other day and it was such a rewarding feeling to hit that breaking point. I felt like I wasn't going to be able to finish my goal and just being able to push through the pain and difficulty is such a rewarding thing. Only one and a half months till the marathon. I'm getting pumped to for the race.

I think this will be my next feat!

How I continue to make mistakes

I guess this is just an entry to talk about some of the things that I have been dealing with. I have found myself in a tough place right now and I guess that it isn't really easy to discuss this. But here we go.

So lately I have felt like all I have been doing is making a lot of mistakes and it is hard for me to see the difference that I am making in people's lives. I feel that after so many years of great friendships and really close people I have both lost and pushed away really close friendships.

I have found that we learn the most from our mistakes. I have made a lot of them but more importantly I have prevented myself from even more of them by learning from my previous decisions. I guess in all of this I just have found that the most important the to learn is that we all make mistakes and the truly amazing people are the one's who learn from their mistakes and are able to move on from their previous ones.

For me the ultimate example of someone who can move beyond people's mistakes is Jesus Christ I have had to realize that we all make mistakes and that the only truly perfect person is Jesus Christ and he is the only one who can truly not forgive people yet he is the most forgiving person on the earth because he loves us more than we can ever fathom.

So for me this mean that I need to try harder every day to forgive people and that includes myself. I guess that for me life has so much more meaning when I can get beyond myself.

What?... a new post!

So i'm sure that no one really reads this anymore since I haven't posted in ages. I do in fact still exist if you were wondering.

So what's been going on with me? Well I have become really busy between being a full time student working three jobs. I know you may be thinking "what three jobs?" Well you see the truth is that it's not really that bad and I truly do enjoy each of my jobs.

Anyways enough of this clique explanation for why i'm so busy in my life. So I have recently been thinking about what is important in my life? What truly is my cornerstone in life. And I have come to find it's one of three things:

God

Family

Friends

Ok yes again something that is so clique but hear me out for just a moment.

God

The reason God has been such a cornerstone for my life is because he is the center of everything that I am and everything that I care about. God is more than just something to show up for every once in a while he is in absolutely everything that I do and think.

Family

Ok so this one has become really important to me recently. Some of you know that I have become an uncle recently and yes he is amazing. You'll see a picture of him above. He is such a lesson for my life. That we do deserve things in our life that are special and life changing. We deserve to blessings and Tressel has truly become a blessing in my life. He is more than just my new nephew. He is my little buddy and I wouldn't want anything to ever happen to him. Having a new nephew has not only gotten me close to him but also my brother and his wife. I'm so much more appreciative of my family and what they do for me.

Friends

The friends in my life have truly shown me what my life's purpose is and how I can love and be loved by others. Thanks to everyone who has given up time for me. You are all such a blessing to my life.

So may be asking why did he just describe all of these. Well I have found that it is so much more meaningful if you truly look at what is important in your life. I have found that I have changed over the past year a lot and I will continue to as I near the end of my college career.

Not taking life for granted.

Today I stumbled upon a quote that was not what I expected, but got me thinking. "We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give." -Winston Churchill

I did not expect to here these words and it got me thinking about how often we try to live for ourselves and how often we take away from life instead of giving back to it. After reading this quote I thought about how often I take the things that are given to me for granted and how often I just don't care to give back to the people in my life that deserve it... I even thought about the people that give so much up for me. I find that it is crucial to give of ourselves in order to truly be happy. I love to receive a gift, but I love to give a gift even more. I recently bought a pair of toms shoes and for those of you who don't know what they are... they are shoes in which every time that you buy a pair of shoes you also give a pair of shoes to another child. I loved the idea of giving a child a pair of shoes. If you would like more details here is the website tomsshoes.com

I don't just desire to buy a pair of shoes or give away my most prized possessions, but to truly give myself to others. Through my time, efforts, heart, and just serve people in the way that we were meant to. "With Love"

The Ordeal About Life

Why is it that life seems like it should be so simple on the surface, but yet it is so difficult. You know when you are growing up and you feel like life will be so simple and no one will get in my way. Its like your dreams are perfect and no one can stop you. And then you get there and you are like man I don't even feel like you deserve to have a dream. Its like you will never get there. I know that God has the bigger picture and that he has paved the path ahead, but why should I follow something that my heart doesn't know if it is right or wrong. I wonder if anyone else feels that life works in mysterious ways. If you feel like your mind only works in ways that you want it to. Its like you run from the true dream and trick yourself so much that you don't truly know what your true dream is anymore. Your mind pulls away from your soul and what you truly live for. So here is line that we all have to make. Who are we truly living for? For God? For others? For ourselves? What is becoming our true God in life and what is controlling all of us? And that is what we need to fix, our hearts or our minds, whatever gets in the way must be fixed and moved in place to glorify God and all he is. I would love to hear about your story. So comment. Please

The way that music affects our life

Have you ever thought about the way that music affects our lives and the way that we sometimes let it control our emotions? I sometimes put on music that puts me a great mood and I tend to have a great day after that point, and sometimes I put on music that is upsetting or just plain outrageous. I tend to let that music run my emotions, and don't care about how much time I spend listening to music that is secular or just wrong to listen to. I just let things get into my head too much sometimes. Don't get me wrong I love to sit down and listen to some great music. However, sometimes I let it begin to control my life and the emotions that I put off. I am going to challenge myself this week, not to let the music I listen to affect me as much and begin to care about what other people's emotions are and not my own. It's time to care about others more than ourselves.

A new look on the way other people act!

Have you ever been around someone, who just seems to be so surface level and isn't really that intentional about the way that they act around you and your not sure why? I have begun to notice small things at a time when i am around someone that I barely know or someone that I have just met. Have you ever been in a conversation with someone and they just don't seem to care about what you are saying? Like when you are truly trying to get to know someone and they just don't seem to give you a full attention, or they don't really look at you when you are speaking. I have also noticed this when I first meet people, and they only seem to ask you very general questions that are so ordinary. Such as, "How is your day?" or "Wow isn't it a beautiful day out today?" It just seems like people are stuck in a habit of being so generic and don't want to be intentional. The worst part about this is that I have begun to notice this not only in others, but also in myself. I have observed myself in the act of being fake, or unintentional. Its like when you get caught up in your own life too much, that you don't care enough to get to know those around you. So my challenge for those of you who read this is to get intentional and actually get to know people for who they truly are and not worry about your self image or think about the fact that you may never see that person again, because the truth is is that if your not intentional why should some be intentional to you. Its time to care about those around you and be the love that you should be. "By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." John 13:35

Oh how i miss rock climbing

I havent climbed in a few weeks and i truly miss it. It had been nearly a year since i had gone even a week without climbing and now i truly miss it like crazy. I want to get off of my butt and get onto the walls. I havent touched a rock in nearly three months and im going crazy. So ive been forced to settle for looking at pictures of other climbers. It makes me want to go to places all over the world like this.

When you find some of your passions in life!

Sometimes we are unsure of who we want to be or where we want to go, but there is one thing in life that I have discovered. If we spend our whole life looking for what we want to become or do, we are never going to find it. It is when it falls right into your hands unexpectantly, that is when we know what we want in life. I believe that God has set us out to become an off set of him, but the important thing is not that we become more trusting of God or more aware of what he has for us its that we just lay down our search and that we become more aware of his will as it falls into our hands. May all of our lives not be wasted.

today and forever more

When I think about who I am and why I am here, I often think about my past. But, why should I be thinking about my past. Is my being not comprised of the past, present and future? Well we all know the answer to that question, but lets truly step back and look at what we have become. Who we are is not reflected by our past, it is reflected by our present and what we do with the time that God has given to us. Why can't we just step back and let the lead be taken by God? I guess the answer is that he has given us the freedom to decide where we go in life the only thing that he can do for us is just give advice. So, why do I find myself running from his advice when I know that I need it most. I'm not entirely sure, but I guess that it has to do with the amount of energy that I am willing to put into it. I know that God has a plan for me, but I just keep running in another direction and the only thing that stops me on the way are the stop signs that God has placed next to the road, but why do I even obey the stop signs, when I can't even stay on the road correctly. I guess that God has another plan for me and that involves crashing my car into a brick wall and figuring out, I should have listened to God' s plan and this never would have happened.